WhyHope.com - Victim of criminals in the Ohio legal system, Scott W. Spencer and his Bowling Green, Ohio, peers.

Killing public servants like police, lawyers, and judges must be ok with the State of Ohio because it is their motto: "With God, all things are possible"

To keep me from reporting the truth I was drugged on the advice given by lying public servants of Wood County, Ohio in orders claimed from the sheriff himself.

Suicide seemed like an escape from the reckless intimidation from Bowling Green, Ohio, VIPs who spread gossip that I was a dangerous criminal out to kill which lawmen and prosecutors like recently elected Judge Reger intimidated me to not report and they obstructed investigation of possible crimes I may had been a victim of. The intimidation was like experienced by famous Internet Activist and computer programmer Aaron Swartz which caused him to kill himself while he was harassed in a reckless federal prosecution.

Why I did not commit suicide like Aaron Swartz under threat by a turd legal system is likely because my own father had done much worse most of my life telling me that he could kill me if I did not do what he wanted, that I was a turd, and other abuses which in combination with him giving me LSD in San Francisco when I was 5 or 6 made me believe all humans who recklessly use intimidation must be nuts controlled by the eggs of their one eyed monster or other animal passions. I never really grew up, Zap magazine and other sad "adult comics" making me afraid as a kid what adults might do to me. Forced to take my cloths off for nude swimming locations in California did not help.

Intimidation in the name of God, by agents for the state, a serious problem admitted by Wood County Judge Reger and Sheriff Mark Wasylyshyn, has been used to knowingly cause me psychological harm since 1998. At that time an admitted "Cop for Christ" confronted me at Tosh Electronics to tell me that I am basically a worthless sick person who needs to get religion. Little did this turd throwing monkey know that he was a trigger for all my experiences surviving the monkeys who worship the intimidating poop that must had come from a huge ass in the heavens.

Perhaps the burning bush was really a burning bag of crap? Intimidation without mercy is not what I consider the will of a real God. Ohio acts to control and punish like the burning shit bag.

Intimidation by Judge Reger and by Wood County Sheriff Mark Wasylyshyn is a felony when their goals are for personal profit or revenge, etc., like in State v Steele*. These men advised efforts to illegally intimidate me into not reporting possible crimes involving them and their peers as reported by witnesses and in evidence on this website, on YouTube, in official court & police records, and copies on other websites.

The methods used by Prosecutor Reger, the sheriff, and their peers is best called Destabilization as defined by Wikipedia. In fact the definition in Wikipedia references many of the elements in what some would also call getting a suspect to talk, gaslighting, dehumanization, and the famous Silent Treatment that Prosecutor Reger advised others to use in order to make their unclear demands a real method of psychological abuse.

After I was illegally harassed with lies that I was legally a felon by famous Ohio Republican Party lawyer Scott W. Spencer who used false evidence he created in the 2001 Marion, Ohio, civil court case by the National Jaycees claiming I was out to kill, etc., it is clear that I have a right to suggest crimes by his peers who let this happen and are recorded letting me suffer as a victim of clear and serious crimes against me.

When the legal system itself causes more harm than criminals or civil disputes then there is a threat to all of society. I believe competition between the three branches of government is why all three have attempted to escalate their power over regular citizens at your cost and risk of unwarranted suffering from their abuses of power.

I would not have lost years of my life living in fear if agents of the Bowling Green and Wood County, Ohio, legal systems had not acted to discredit me and prevent investigation of my complaints.

Their biggest mistake was I had already been a victim and had learned to resist so I could survive and kept the evidence to prove it. I would not know about corrupt conduct in their venue if they had not falsely assumed I would be easy prey like their other victims. My mistake was not understanding how past criminals had caused and controlled me using complex PTSD and giving me LSD when I was 5 or 6 as my dad finally admitted after I was 30, or that breaking PTSD requires real and not imagined threats because your brain knows real fear vs fake. Victims survive learning to sort out truth.

Doctors gave me drugs like Risperidone and Haldol which actually made me worse as other people living with LSD flashbacks had discovered. People who did well after LSD had learned not to focus on the symptoms which result in worry and make everything worse like the mental health system had done to me instead of actually helping me feel safe and to focus. Ohio by justifying reckless intimidation for its public servants to control people had pushed me to feeling my only escape from their hell of intimidation in the name of God was my death. But my real God does not seem to agree with intimidation or needless killing.

Killing me is the only way they can be sure to silence me. This explains why they needed to paint me as nuts and their criminal conspiracy in 2009 to falsely report that I had called up threatening to kill Judge Reddin caught in the YouTube video. At a minimum they could had prosecuted me with violating Ohio code, 2921.03 Intimidation or related crimes and get me put in jail 1 to 5 years for the felony using their fabricated evidence and lies. Or they can claim feeling physically threatened then murder me in cold blood like the recent famous Chicago case. More and more lawmen appear to be nuts when they can claim an excuse to injure or kill.

My life has always been intimidation and fear because my father Richard (Dick) Lake was a Marijuana activist known to many famous and powerful people. Since I was a young child and we lived in California my father Richard Lake was 1972 Solano coordinator for the Marijuana Initiative. Visiting supporters like Gilbert Shelton famous for Fat Freddy's Cat and other underground drug culture comics is how I first learned about the world and what to fear, perhaps giving me a distorted view of how to live.

Physical handicaps in my coordination between the sides of my body has made me easy prey to violently bully because I basically cannot fight and stress causing each side of my brain to balance for control, issues like Savant Kim Peek who inspired the Rain Man movie had to survive. Some people learned how to use my handicaps to upset me, illegally blackmail me, criminally intimidate me like famous convicted felon Ohio GOP attorney Scott W. Spencer had done to me lying to dozens in the National Jaycees and Republican Party that I was found guilty of threatening to kill Lori Terwilliger and Marie Thomas of Bowling Green, Ohio in separate felony cases based on evidence he fabricated for the Marion, Ohio, county court in 2001.

False records in the Ohio legal system starting at Bowling Green, Ohio, continue to subject me to illegal harassment and risk I could be injured or killed as federal agents are recorded suggesting to me and to witnesses like Michelle Wawryzinak. I have no choice but to push back against the criminals in the legal system who clearly remain willing to break the law like Prosecutor Matt Reger who is now running to be a judge in Wood County, Ohio. The evidence is that he wanted to be popular with local VIPs when he first appeared to commit crimes of criminal intimidation to drive me away from membership in the Bowling Green Jaycees and he clearly lied to investigators of the Ohio Supreme Court about his actions and my writing letters about my being harassed.

Some people claim I am looking for evil. But I grew up with evil finding me when all I wanted was good so if it appears I am obsessed now it is because I am almost 50 and never found significant help to overcome my handicaps so I could be safely productive in society and perhaps start a family if I was ready. Likely I lack social skills most learn as teenagers and am like Nikola Tesla with same interests in science and lack of interest in dating or needing female companionship, likely upsetting Lori Terwilliger of Bowling Green, Ohio, when I was pressured to date her. She has coordination handicaps like myself so living together would had been dangerous chaos.

Bowling Green Prosecutor Reger and peers make me afraid they will hurt anyone close to me in an effort to intimidate me more, physically threaten, etc. So despite my needing health aids because I am paralyzed and need help to safely take a shower, etc., I have canceled anyone helping me at home until agents of the legal system are ordered and/or prosecuted to stop attacking people who I needed for support like lawmen are recorded doing in 2009 in the YouTube video below. I also have MRSA and none of the lawmen appear to be trained or ready to safely confront, transport, or jail me. Perhaps they can sue if they get MRSA from me but it is their masters they must sue for bad leadership and poor training. You can hear the one lawman in second video below saying I am being accommodated fine near video end at 11:34:44 am, so is it true if he got MRSA failing to follow federal law?

.. Here is the pain and danger they put me in, forced to use a bed too low for my wheelchair, no hand rails to transfer safely, and other issues which made it unreasonably difficult to take care of myself versus a non-paralyzed person. Nurse said I was in jail to be punished even though I was a suspect awaiting trial. The sheriff and his agents either are poorly trained or knowingly were violating federal and Ohio laws.

*(Steele, 138 Ohio St.3d 1, 2013-Ohio-2470)

In 2008 agents of Bowling Green, Ohio acted to obstruct justice for Prosecutor Matt Reger. They won at that time by threatening people close to me like Michelle Wawrzyniak as shown in the evidence now placed on this this website and elsewhere on the internet:

Summery of evidence against Bowling Green, Ohio, prosecutor Reger and his corrupt peers who obstructed justice for him.


Lawmen obstructing justice for local VIPs as demonstrated by police records. You can hear the one lawman in the video below saying I am being accommodated fine near video end at 11:34:44 am, so is it true if he got MRSA failing to follow federal law?


My companion believed lies about calling threatening to kill could be true.


Attempting bail but getting run around, my companion confronted with idea not safe staying with me. She soon ended up in hospital due for mental health issues due to this stress and worry I may be dangerous, then in a nursing home, but after a few months came back realizing she was getting as much support staying with me plus could go places easier.


Bowling Green records show orders to harass me.


Bowling Green agents illegally sent threats using my medical providers.


Counselor calls me marked man, etc.

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I believe with a real God, or attempt at good, all things are not possible because it requires constant mercy to avoid becoming a pawn of evil.

- Michael Lake
Donald Trump indictment by Wood County, Ohio, who believe his views and methods are a crime, at least when I copy Trump. So now there is a warrant for my arrest because I am claimed to upset people like future US President Trump?

I do not believe a crime had been committed by me or Trump, but newly elected Judge Reger of Wood County, Ohio, and his supporters clearly think Donald Trump and myself are criminals!

"Life is not a book where we can look back and read where we went wrong. Our minds hide fear and pain which would consume us in the here and now. But that fact can make us pawns to criminals and unable to explain how and why we act out on fear we cannot seem to explain.

No man, group, system, or government should have the right to abuse or ignore a person like myself who had more fear and pain to hide than any person should be expected to survive. The stories in the Bible seem like a walk in the park to me, other than stories of being killed.

What I never expected was by trying to admit I wanted help to break the past fear an pain, this pattern of fear was used to make me more of a slave to anyone with the power to influence others on attacking a heart broken from when I was a child, around nudists calling themselves Children of God, using LSD, and things which terrified a 6 year old brain.

But I had no ordinary brain for a 6 year old. Teachers thought I may be a genius. And perhaps I was but when surviving abuse and pain is your life, your genius must focus on reducing abuse and not getting killed. Fear was what genius could not see because fear is blinding.

However no one should underestimate my will to understand what perhaps few in the world know about the traps of fear, anger, hate, and mercy shaping all of society."

- savant Michael John Lake
And yes, when fear became so bad I thought I would be killed, I grasped for strength in myself, and from the Bible came the idea that I was the Arch Angel Michael, the only thing which could survive this fire in my mind, and I did survive. So was it a delusion or did faith actually work against intimidation I did not know how to survive as an adult with a broken 6 year old heart?

- Odd how my resolving cPTSD is like sci-fi hero in Dark City movie and unpreventable confrontations like Ender's Game, I believe mercy is the most powerful name of God, resisting all who worship death because mercy is about life, all life. +

? Why does space/time curve and spin more in some directions and not others? When the energy of mass approaches an entire universe, Einstein is both correct and wrong. I wonder if he found the truth but the shock was too much when it all adds up and explodes with what should had been obvious patterns. Truth is dangerous to the foolish who are not ready.

Intimidated by $4 Billion Guardian Industries to be silent about my being a victim of crimes by Scott W. Spencer and fired for it:

These two documents are part of a pattern of blackmail, harassment, and intimidation to keep me silent about being a witness and victim of crime-

1. silence-mike-lake.pdf
2. threat-letter.pdf

About me versus Bowling Green, Ohio:

I was not told the truth about my legal status by agents of the Bowling Green, Ohio, city court until after they arrested me and prosecuted me for picketing my being a victim of crime because local police refused to take my complaints and investigate honestly as official records show.

Look up Michael Lake in the records of Bowling Green, Ohio police or the court and see obvious official misconduct for yourself if you know what you are looking for.  (I admit you need to know the laws and rules for members of the legal system to recognize official misconduct so I will be providing more details on this website.  Some details are in the videos.)

Activist for individuals attacked for Autism spectrum disorders and mental health issues.
Mike Lake, activist

Toledo, Ohio


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..(stigma cartoon) - We donít want you! You are: sick! dangerous! threatening! acting like a criminal! - We are not hurting the mentally ill. They are crazy!- (You can copy and use this cartoon if left as is.)

Mental illness seems to be a bigger money maker for news and movies than it is a social issue! This cartoon also shows why it is easier to write about these issues than to talk about them.  Bowling Green, Ohio, and the army are my strongest experiences with this social evil and failures to properly diagnose what is physical handicap or due to poor diet and health or result of environment like abuse & crime or actual mental health issue needing drugs, etc.

Asperger Disorder with the hidden symptoms of autism is a better diagnosis than the army's diagnosis of bipolar disorder.  For more also see : See my Asperger's Syndrome webpage.

See index below. or - current evidence - past evidence

See my radio antenna inventions.

The Three Faces of Life:

There is what people expect you to be,
there is what you want to be,
and what you must be to survive.

(Mental health support tends to fail because it ignores these three faces of life.)

Vote on the best protest signs:
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Stop Fear
and Hate of
Mental Illness

a., 12 votes
Mental Illness
by gov., VA,
police & law

b., 4 votes
We are 

c., 22 votes

Justice for
all, except
mentally ill?

d., 2 votes

Mental illness
is isolation
& despair

e., 8 votes
News bias is
mental illness

f., 1 votes
makes me

g., 7 votes
Fix VA

h., 3 votes

Who protects
Mentally ill?

i., 18 votes
Ready for
mental illness

j., 1 votes

Does anyone
care about the
"Mentally ill"?

k., 8 votes

Tell government
Veterans need

l., 5 votes

Stop stigma
and hate of
mental illness

m., 10 votes
weak nation,
no compassion.

n., 5 votes

End attacks
on the
mentally ill.

o., 13 votes

Served nation,
now forgotten

p., 7 votes

mentally ill
need help

q., 8 votes

needed for
mentally ill

r., 10 votes

Mentally ill
+ Support =

s., 2 votes

Pick a
mental illness
protest sign

t., 1 votes
Mentally ill

x., 4 votes
Mentally ill
deserve jail,
not help?


y., 1 votes
Give up,
you have
no rights!


z., 1 votes

WhyHope.com should be on top:
u., 5 votes

WhyHope.com should be at bottom:
v., 16 votes

w. Suggestions:
(so far: 1. We are human not Contagious, 2. Mentally ill + Support = Harmony)

When you are finished:

Instead of protesting, I would sooner invent like on my HamDomain.com. If I do not protest then nothing will change.


Who I am:
Contrast between my abilities and influence of problems started in the army is "tearing my mind apart". Practical issues matter!
I recently invented the "Parabolic Discone", "liquid metal elastic stretchable wire", and other ideas. I have the genius to contribute to society in major ways despite mental illness (like the movie "A Beautiful Mind"). 1 In the army a diagnosis of mental illness subjected me to fear, bigotry and hate. As a result the army and civic group claim I am a Dangerous Person. These claims destroyed my social life and hope for a family. My regular Veterans Affairs mental health doctors have ignored these issues. (See va-award, page 3, "Ann Arbor" and compare with real evidence on this website.)
1988: When entering the army I proved my abilities and graduated the top of my class in electronics warfare school. 2 1989: After army school I was diagnosed with a mental illness, "bipolar disorder". The army punished me for this medical problem. I believe the memories haunt me today as PTSD.
2003: I overcame the most terrifying of my problems. I had seemed to be in a trance or "dream" for most of the time since the army, as if I had no control over my fate. It appeared to be like a continuous type of PTSD and related to stress and stigma. 3 2003:  Despite breaking my past trance, I developed a "replacement problem". I had not tried very hard to find out why I was limping until my foot went numb. A spinal cord tumor ultimately caused me to be paralyzed. Depression and anger started to be more of an issue.


I have Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder, c-PTSD

I developed Complex Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder" (c-PTSD) in growing up with abuse from my father, which was made worse due to misdiagnosis while I was a soldier in the US Army . The truth started to come out in 1989 after I was falsely diagnosed with BiPolar Disorder.
See evidence to support having Complex Posttraumatic Stress Disorder.
Hardball about Mental illness, Stigma and Society

This is how I am dealing with stigma of "my" mental illness, bipolar disorder. As a disabled veteran, I should feel proud that I protected and served my country. Instead many people think I am dangerous like Rambo in the movie "First Blood". This is what law enforcement and "experts" claimed.

The best way for the mentally ill to fight back is to play "hardball". Who cares if the mentally ill are victims? Authorities will use hardball to claim that someone is sick, dangerous, or a killer - even if it is a lie! When the mentally ill complain of a crime, who is willing to investigate?

Harassment was the army's response after I was diagnosed with mental illness in 1989. Medical people said I could be a productive soldier. My chain of command convinced me that I am worthless. 

Instead of giving up I contacted thousands Jaycees members looking for one person to help. My pay back was more harassment, threats, and finally being brought to court by the United States Junior Chamber of Commerce and Ohio Jaycees.

Why Hope to survive with stigma or mental illness? This website has (had, updating Dec. 2011) over 200 pages of evidence about my experience: Attacks, punishment, fear and stigma for having a mental illness, BiPolar Disorder. A lack of finding support and having to act as my own advocate in the worst of situations.


My favorite links related to mental illness:

Webrings that I belong to.

My other websites:

DemandJustice.com - websites relating to justice.

 On this website (being edited Dec. 2011):

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Does the VA care about harm caused by the army? - My "service connected" mental illness results in poor health and social problems. For trying to serve and protect our nation, do I deserve to be forgotten? The U.S. Department of Veterans Affairs has failed to provide the support that I request.

My Photos - Look at photos from the life of someone with mental illness. These pictures may surprise some people. It was too easy to forget the good in my life after I had been confronted for being mentally ill.

My life - mental illness is creativity or danger? - Doctors did not warn me about the social dangers of living with a mental illness, Bipolar Disorder.  Mental Health workers and psychiatrists did not tell me about discrimination or the ADA, the Americans with Disabilities Act. All the important things I had to learn after I was attacked for being mentally ill. I also discuss Schizoaffective Disorder, which is like mild schizophrenia.

In court, they say that I will kill them - they claim "... It is well-recognized that persons suffering from manic depression often contemplate and even act upon their suicidal thoughts. Unfortunately, all too often persons having such low self-esteem and death wishes chose to kill others in conjunction with destroying themselves."

Credit Cards bad for mentally ill? - The confusion and impulses with mental illnesses make credit cards risky: 1. Do you understand the real risks when you sign for one? 2. Would you remember not to go over your limit and send payments in time? 3. What if you ended up in the hospital?

What I have learned by running this website - Why hope to change anything if the people who need to listen will not? Hate Crimes are acceptable against the Mentally ill? - Saint Joan of Arc experienced "voices and visions" and was murdered for it. NAMI* and other advocates cause harm?

History - Old copies of this website.

My crazy beliefs:  God, Life, Universe, Everything(infinite existence) times (infinitely small chance) equals one

Find out about the Autistic Civil Rights Movement.

* This website is not associated with any  links or organizations, unless shown otherwise.

* 4 - BiPolar Disorder has been called: BiPolar illness, Manic Depressive illness, Bi-Polar Disorder, Bi-Polar Mood Disorder and variations.

Name change:  the title "WhyHope.com - Hardball about Mental illness, Stigma and Society - USA" is being changed to "WhyHope.com - Hardball about Mental health, Stigma and Society - Autistic Rights!" in order to better reflect where I am at.  Technically because they say I have bipolar disorder in addition to symptoms of autism they classify the bipolar as a claimed mental illness.

Plus the national Jaycees civic group claims that people with bipolar disorder are known to kill and can not be members of their group, which expresses the public discrimination against people who get the label of a mental illness.  To this date the Jaycees organization refuses to disclaim the past views it has put into the legal record, so the Jaycees apparently do not mind being labeled themselves as a possible hate group.

Bowling Green, Ohio, police recorded abuse of power helping Jaycees.

Contact Information:

E-mail: Mike@whyhope.com - I have been slow lately so it may take more than a few days to reply.  If I do not reply in a week or two, please email me again in case your message got lost in all the spam I get.  You also never know when I will be put in jail for political prosecution again.  They keep looking for reasons to jail me forever as I have secretly recorded in threats against me.

- Last update Feb 14, 2017.
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