History of WhyHope.com

Here are old copies of this website as I was making it.  Because I do not know what truly motivates most people, I have tried a variety of ideas to discuss stigma and mental illness.

The one thing that I do know is not to expect anyone to care out of compassion.  Perhaps if I offered sex pictures the world would beat a path to this website.  I am trying to bring up serious issues about how society treats the mentally ill, so offering other content seems to defeat the point.
Past copies of the main page:
10-30-04 11-10-04 01-15-05 02-04-05 03-02-05 03-14-05

Here are introductions to my main page in April 2007.  This was when I was contacted by the FBI, followd a weak later by the Virginia Tech rampage of Cho Seung-Hui:

See the start of the main page, the introduction, and my letter to U.S. Congresswoman Marcy Kaptur on April 25th, 2007.

Here is some additional information:

The Virginia Tech rampage by Cho Seung-Hui has touched me deeply.  It could have been prevented if someone listened and took positive action.  How many people even listen?  Cho Seung-Hui tried to break our self-destructive isolation from unwanted truths.  Doom that I predicted since 2005 is coming true.

I could clearly see that Cho Seung-Hui was fighting the same evil that horrified me.  The deaths of 33 people at Virginia Tech was an extreme way to draw attention to it.  My own more compassionate methods have not drawn much national attention yet.  It is sad that our great nation tends to ignore problems until death results.

As the world becomes more hedonistic the glue that binds society becomes weaker.  That glue is respect and compassion.  Cho Seung-Hui used rich kids as an example.  However most people are trying live like they are rich.  Laws and rules do no good if they are ignored or are too confusing.  Chaos is the evil which has the final word when all else fails.

"Evil must be exposed" according to O'Reilly of FoxNews.com.  I agree.  It is the path God gave me.

My Second Response:

I was taught to trust authorities, law, our society.  More recent experiences broke my trust.  Without trust I live in fear, confusion, anger, and hopelessness.  This is like Cho Seung-Hui in the Virginia Tech rampage.  He killed to express it.  I chose compassion: sending letters, this website, etc.  He gained national attention.  I keep trying.

The media is wrong that anger was the motive for the Va Tech rampage.  The real motive is fear, plus a memory process like PTSD.  He mentioned being cornered.  Unfortunately fear can grow until it can no longer contain emotions like anger.  I keep trying to tell authorities but no one will listen.  My efforts to prevent the cause of this needless killing have failed since 1998.

Example:  The FBI visited me a week before the Virginia Tech rampage.  The agent showed respect.  He said authorities worried I am a terrorist because of my claims and being mentally ill.  As an army veteran watching soldiers like myself go to Iraq and getting killed by terrorists, my reaction to being called a terrorist is something that my mind can not let go of.  Where will it end?  How bad will authorities let fear get?

My First Response:

I may know some of Cho Seung-Hui's feelings in the Virginia Tech rampage.  In the army I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder, a mental illness.  I became socially isolated and afraid to look at people.  At Ohio's University of Toledo I told instructors my feelings of being a non-person.  The difference between Cho Seung-Hui and myself is that compassion is a stronger force for me than anger or desire for revenge.

The failure of society and the mental health system to understand these issues may be another connection that I have with the Virginia Tech killings.  Instead of better counseling and other practical support, drugs were considered enough by my veterans doctors.  I wrote government leaders for real help without results.

I was even accused of stalking like Cho Seung-Hui.  Except there is one big difference.  A civic group asked me to date one of their members.  We broke up.  They continued to stalk us about dating.  Then my mind could not take any more.  I started writing about it.  Finally they convinced the legal system that I was out to kill them because I would not give up on truth.

Harassing or isolating people with these issues only makes them hide better, plan more, and kill more if they lack compassion.  How can you expect "social behavior" from someone being pushed away from the normal expectations of life?  I have seen and felt the feelings behind Cho Seung-Hui's confessions and rants.  I would do it myself if I did not have compassion.

I can guess why Cho Seung-Hui killed so close to graduating.  It was time for students to move on in life.  The machine like logic needed to survive college with his emotions would force him to consider his future.  He apparently had no safety net or hope to help him survive his fears so they consumed him.  I survived a similar test in college by calling out to God.  The path that followed came here.

Jesus has been my guide to life and compassion.  His examples are still true but the world has changed.  I am not certain that any religion would tolerate Jesus within their organization today.


Return to the main page of WhyHope.com